She walked along the path a little further, noting the richness of the sounds around her. They did not necessarily always grace her ears musically, as there were dissonant chords embedded, but the layers were pleasing. As she rounded the corner, she felt a disquiet mounting like a shadow slowly consuming a room. Ahead were forks in the footpath. As she gazed forward, there was no view to be had as to where either led, for both were concealed behind the fullness of the wood. She was struck suddenly by a realization. She had begun along a familiar course, but somewhere along the way, unbeknownst to her, she had become lost.
She walked along the path a little further, noting the richness of the sounds around her. They did not necessarily always grace her ears musically, as there were dissonant chords embedded, but the layers were pleasing. As she rounded the corner, she felt a disquiet mounting like a shadow slowly consuming a room. Ahead were forks in the footpath. As she gazed forward, there was no view to be had as to where either led, for both were concealed behind the fullness of the wood. She was struck suddenly by a realization. She had begun along a familiar course, but somewhere along the way, unbeknownst to her, she had become lost. The fullness of her will and intellect brought down upon this circumstance did nothing to alleviate the fear growing within her. There were no guiding stones upon either way forward, nor could she be sure that retracing her steps would bring her to familiar ground. This was the most uncomfortable intuition of all. In fact, she was certain that, somehow, that which she once knew to be true, wasn’t. She was not even able to easily pierce the growing dread that began permeating every inch of her spirit. The dissonant chords began to overtake the melodious; the darkening wood seemed to be a reflection of her internal state. She knelt and let the shadows have her.
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Initiation is a haphazard process. This is not to say that it doesn’t have stages which, if you are careful, you can identify and strive for. What I mean by this is the process itself is the embodiment of chaos. Just as soon as you set up the scenario so that you can grow in Being and have all your plans ready, in comes your good friend Nyarlathotep to totally mess with your life. This is Initiation. It is a relationship that you establish with yourself putting in the framework and drawing a line in the sand that says you are not going to allow yourself to be drawn along in life. You are going to be conscious, awake, alive, and forge a conscious path in this world. You can see these people who choose this path, even if they do not recognize that is what they have done, in the world. This is an opportunity to witness a model of how to go about it and what it means.
So, what do you do with it? By this I mean, you have worked magic. You have found out that all the awesome Harry Potter flash bang pyrotechnics are not what magic is all about. You have discovered that the majority of the work revolves around self-change, self-knowledge, and understanding your role and place in the grand scheme of things. There is less of the veneer on the world and reality, as it stands, is far plainer. You are fooled less by language and the machinations of others. However, this comes at a price. You do not know who or where your place is. At this point, there is cause for celebration. You have to realize that not many make it this far. Once people discover that the occult/magic isn’t full of fireballs, making money actually grow on trees, or any number of fantasy special effects/results they give up. Truth be told, they usually give up very quickly because they do not do the requisite research and think about why they are doing it in the first place. Without understanding the proper requirements (as I have laid out the framework in previous installments) any magical endeavor is doomed to fail before it even gets going. If you have gotten so far as to acknowledge that you are not the same person, that the world doesn’t look like it used to, that the shiny, distracting veneer of contemporary society looks a bit tarnished, then you are on the right track. No one said this was easy or that it was fun.
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Lasciel AnnwynnI am one of those. Yes, that kind. I poke around in the corners and lesser explored paths of life looking for it's mysteries. There is so much magic in the world when you open your perception to it. Look with eyes of wonder. Archives
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