I was on a catamaran in Boston Harbor on my way out to Stellwagen Bank Marine Sanctuary to see whales. It was amazing to see a mother Humpback whale and her calf. The power of witnessing nature in such a setting is pretty incredible to be sure and a guaranteed way to put the impact of what we do into stark relief. We need to learn to live in harmony within the system that is Earth, not in conflict with it. However, this I not what I wanted to write about, though it is a lovey tangent. What I want to talk about relates to the trip out to Stellwagen Bank on what you first feel is a rather large and powerful ship.
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It is impossible, I say with a cutesy grin on my face. Truly. A friend of mine asked how you survive the Dark Night of the Soul (referred to as DNotS from here). The simple answer is you don’t. Your body likely will make it through, though that is never a guarantee. The purpose of the DNotS being to alchemically change the core of your being, not everyone physically survives it (though, I have only sporadically heard of cases where suicide was the end result and those are few and far between) and a great many more suffer psychological breakdown (this being the more common occurrence where a nervous breakdown happens or there is so drastic a change their lives fall completely apart). I am, by no means, an expert in this and if you are actively aware you are going through this process and are feeling like you are tipping over the edge, I would strongly recommend you seek professional council. I do (though, full disclosure, it is for symptoms related to this process, not because of the process itself). There is no shame in this. So, when I talk about surviving the DNotS, what I mean is that you don’t come out the other side a raving lunatic. The person who enters this process will, in fact, die. That person will never come out. Someone else will.
No one ever asks to be transgendered. I mean, seriously. “Gee, I would LOVE it if I could have the mind of a woman but totally be in a male body. That would just be so cool!” Wow. Um, no. You see, you are never really able to focus on anything except the perpetual noise in your head. On a repeat loop is the phrase (I suppose other TG might have a different one, but you get the idea), “I am wired wrong. I am built wrong. I’m broken.” Hey, does that sound like a life you want? The world HATES you because you are anathema. You are not natural (which is wrong). I am using a broad brush here. I realize that and to those parts of the world that accept or honor TG, I heartily applaud you for seeing through the rubbish.
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Lasciel AnnwynnI am one of those. Yes, that kind. I poke around in the corners and lesser explored paths of life looking for it's mysteries. There is so much magic in the world when you open your perception to it. Look with eyes of wonder. Archives
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